Muffins

I have deicided not to join the fencing club after school, my prefectly good reason being that the teacher who teaches fencing, looks a lot like a pedophile and I sort of freaked out when I saw him and started walking the opposite direction.
But I do look forward to the art club this Tuesday.

Every Saturday I have to go to school for band practise, from 9 till 12, yeah - THREE FREAKIN HOURS OF FREAKIN MUSIC.
It's ok. Our conductors are pretty nice, 'cept for that female one, miss C. She doesn't like me much, because I'm planning to quit music next year.
We also have a break at half time - 10:30, for 20 mins or so. Varies from time to time, depending on how much work we have to get done.

So, yesterday I was talking to my friend Jessica whose mother is utterly horrible, she calls Jessica fat and makes fun of her EVEN THOUGH, she is 179cm and weighs a tiny 55kg. Yet, this situation is not uncommon.




Amy, another friend of mine, is weighed after dinner every night and is yelled at for gaining weight. HOW ABSURD! Obviously your going to gain when you consuming food.
I remember a night last year when both our families went out together for dinner, Amy was about to grab seconds when her mother gave her the death stare and told her to eat no more. Even when Amy tried to tell her mother that everyone else was getting seconds.

So during break time yesterday Jessica told me that the day before, her and Amy went to the pool together, Amy's mum came early to pick Amy up, it was then when Amy's mum started to comment on her body and tell her that she was fat, Amy then said that they swam 1000metres, her mum then telling her that they can go swimming together every weekfrom now on. Her mum also does not approve with her hanging out with other girls who she herself would label "fat." But in reality those girls are the ones who have hips and breasts.
Seriously, this is ridiculous.

anni.



(names have been changed)

Teenage Stuff.

Oh geez.
Second day back to schooland I've got a TON of homework already - mainly math. Also
math teacher - Ms B, gave our class a seating plan, guess where I'm sitting..
Literally a metre and a half away from where she sits.
Yup. That's how much she trusts me as a student and such, infact I am insulted especially with my awesome grades, No really. No joke! Out of 145 students who are doing the same course at school as I am, I'm ranked 44 at the moment, pretty good huh?

Well the other day I took one of those Facebook quizzes "What are you really hiding"
and I got "Loneliness."
Pretty shocked, and it was weird, to be confronted with the truth, in such.. an innocent way.
This is what it said

"You often feel left out of the clique. you seem like you do not know what to say when they are all laughing at some random things at times. you wish they will notice your quietness. you are trying very hard to hide the feeling of loneliness even when you have friends around you. there is a lonely soul living inside you."

Usually I dont take these things seriously, usually I just laugh and continue with the next quiz or comment on someones wall. Everything that it said is pretty close to what school's like - everything but this part
"you wish they will notice your quietness"
not really. I try to ignore it, and sadly pretend to enjoy what ever is happening I really wouldn't want to find out what happens if they do notice. Much too awkward.
It's not so bad, I've enjoyed meeting new friends.
I'm thinking of joining the fencing club after school on Thursdays and the art club after school on Tuesdays. I've also met new friends who I thought that friendship between us would be highly unlikely.
Subconciously. I realised I'm trying to submerge myself back into steryotypical student life - meeting new friends and stuff - it's been nice. I guess I've given up on trying with quite a number on friends. Compensating and filling up the quiet with even more reading, listening to music and family.

I've changed my mine. I think I'm going to pick biology over chemistry.

anni.

saturday. sigh.

Today, I planned to meet up with some friends, which was inevitably cancelled a few days ago because not many could make it, so instead I organised to spend today with another friend who I haven't seen in three years. She ended up cancelling last night.
Three cheers for social rejection.

So today. Well. I'll just do stuff...
School starts again this Tuesday. So far I've completed all my science, now to get "down and dirty" with math - how fun..[insert sarcasm] and make up for a whole two weeks worth of missed flute practise.


anni.

Not enough time.

Not enought time to be lazy I meant.

There is not enought time to watch t.v., surf the net, and watch some movies while doing homework.
School holidays are almost over, tomorrow I plan to meet up with a friend who I haven't seen since primary school.
Secretly I'm a little worried, we'll probably run out of things to say, that's why I prefer if I'm going out with friend, to go in groups no less than three.
She hasn't rsvp'd me yet.
Haven't watched harry potter yet.
Might plan to watch it tomorrow :)

anni.

More Procrastinating

While trying to avoid doing homework and such, I came across an interview with Daniel Radcliffe and Rupert Grint by some Australian guy called Rove.
I almost peed my pants laughing.

Here it is.
Enjoy :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qlzFZcWQwcM

Procrastinating

Half way through the school holidays and I planned to knuckle down practise the flute more and catch up with science, (we're doing human bio at the moment. Not fun at all.)

So far, I've done basically nothing, eductionally related and now I'm starting to panick.

I find it really stupid that when I first started high school, I'd get home and get the assignment or essay or whatever, done immediatly. Now days.. I procrastinate until the last few days until it's due, spending my time on time-consuming sites such as, facebook, myspace, msn and embarressingly perezhilton.com

How embarressing.

But I can admit that I subconsiously put reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood prince before the movie comes out, infront of homework and studies. I really must do something about that.

anni.

Don't get too excited. This one is boring.

The first picture confesses:

"Whenever I have dinner at my in-laws

I pretend I am on "Survivor"

If I just eat it I will win the million."

The seconds picture says:

"I often miss this little girl whose dreams had no barriers

who believed in a world where anything is possible

with a heart
that was full and unbrokwn."

What shall I write today?

It's not like I have a mind boggling super exciting life that I can write about.

Recently I discovered this site called postsecret.com

where people around the world can write their dreams, hopes, aspirations and confessions anonymously on one side of a post card and send it to some guy called Frank, Frank then does what ever he does and it gets posted on the website or published in a book.

Some of them are sad, most of them are inspiring, others are usually funny.

Do you ever feel like your the only one out there, thinking the thoughts your thinking, thinking that we're all so "individual." After reading some of the post and video's on youtube and such. I realise that we are all .. basically the SAME. Internally, mentally. Maybe you already know that, maybe your thinking,

"OBVIOUSLY! I have a PHD in philosophy blah blah blah." etc etc.

So, is there really anything such as unique?

I sure hope there is.

I've finally decided to choose chemisty over biology. But I'll probably have to get tutoring and study extra hard before the course starts, so that when the course does start, I will hit the ground running.

You know, I wish everything was so much easier. I wish some how I would invent some usless invention which everyone in the western world suddenly "needs" to have, and I get 30 cents every time the object is sold.

That would be real nice huh?

Thanks for reading.

anni.

TRA LA .. LA..... la..

Recently I've been inspired to try to self-teach myself the piano. We have a piano, which I don't play, but now after putting together some cords and notes and then randomly playing some keys in between, I've already given up.

I really don't know what I going to do - about my lazyness I mean.

I started working on some science homework today, and then got distracted. This is going to be tough, to beable to sum up enough motivation and enthusiasum, argh! This is never going to work, I'm much too lazy.

"STOP BEING LAZY!"
I say to my self.

anni.

Face the Brace.

It's the end of another day, tomorrow I was suppose to have my brace's tightened, yay, fun [insert sarcasm here] but then I realised I had a make-up math test at the same time in the morning before school. Brace tightening doesn't sound that bad any more, but education comes first... and then pain.

Right now I'm in a bit of a pickle, not something major, just trying to decided which subjects to do next year, trying to figuring out whether I should do biology - which is highly recommended by my teacher, or chemistry, where last year I aced, but this year, I totally bombed. Biology doesn't exactly interest me that much, but neither does chemistry, but I'm trying to keep my doors open, and chemistry seems to be the way to go, unless I fail. Biology seems like the safer option, but admittly it is the subject which the "stupid kids" (quote friend) take because it is basically just remembering stuff where as chemistry is an application of knowledge.

I must be boring you now.

Holidays coming up soon, I'm excited, but I'll probably end up staying in-doors all day, doing homework and such.

Wait no, that's not right, I have a "To Do List" to complete over the holidays,

number 4. Buy butcher paper. Write "will try harder in school"

Reason being? I'll sticky tape it on my bedroom wall, so that every morning when I wake up that'll be the first thing I see.

Though it's not like I'm FAILING school. I suppose it just that the school and everyone else has high expectations,

"Good, is not enough." Should really be the school's motto.

Looking forward to the new Harry Potter movie coming out!

Wish me luck for tomorrows test.

Thanks for reading and if you feeling especially generous today, leave a comment :)

anni.

First Impressions.

So.
First "Posting."
First impressions count? Right?
Let me start with myself.
I am shall you say, just another teen. Working life around the strict rules of well.. everyone, and everybody. I suppose it's not that bad, having people make the choices for you, personally I find that much easier then making the choices yourself. I find choosing to eat something for lunch from my limited canteen difficult, now imagine choosing what to do with the rest of your life. Infact, let's not think about that, for now I suppose.
I like reading, as a teenager, books written by Matthew Reilly are the awesomest! (I'm reading "Contest" now infact :). Along with a few others, including Meg Cabot, but disincluding her "Princess Diarys" series and the Alex Cross series by James Patterson. Those are definitly worth reading on the boring bus ride home.
Today I had a math test. Forced upon me by my math teacher Ms B. I'm pretty sure I failed it. considering I skipped a whole load of questions, one including a very simple question on which I happened to have the most inconvient mind blank at the time.
Thanks for that, brain.
I wish today was a Saturday, you know, if I really had a wish, I'd wish for a million more wishes. maybe that's just very selfish of me.
Also.
As a teenager of the female speices. I am NOT obessed with Twilight.
If you do not know know what Twilight is, I suggest you head out to your local library tomorrow morning and take out the book. "Twilight" by Stephanie Meyer.
Please don't judge the book by the movie, because the movie was crap in conparision, sort of like the Harry Potter movies where they skipped many parts out.

Anyways.
Bye for now,
and thanks for taking your time to read this.

anni.